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Rest in Peace to our two dogs, Reggie and Sammy. It was inevitable that they would have to go one day. They've been in our lives for 15 years, and sadly they've gotten so old that they've been suffering for quite some time. They've lived way passed their time of death, starting to lose their eye sight and hearing, had hip displasia, have not been eating much anymore, and started to pee and poop themselves even when they've been taken outside. They may have annoyed me from time to time, but I still loved them, I just wish I could've expressed it more, but it's too late now. At least they will no longer be suffering anymore. You may Rest in Peace Reggie and Sammy. Adopted in 2004 - Died in December 13th, 2019.

I honestly feel like a broken record at this point, and I'm sorry for going on about it again. Once again the feeling of isolation and being trapped is taking a toll on me, knowing that I've been living in the same old house, in the same old town, where absolutely nothing happens anymore, where the same old things happen every single day, and living my entire life in this one place, for 15 years straight. I honest to god hate it here, and I know my problems can't be solved so easily, but I sometimes feel like I'm gonna be trapped in this hell hole where I live until I turn old and die. I don't want to be here anymore, I've ranted to my parents, siblings, friends, therapists, doctors, etc, and I feel like nothing will ever change, I really just want to get out of here, and live a brand new life, but I always feel like I will never be given that opportunity, just to be left here to rot away until I'm no more. This place is a prison, it's what hell feels like to me. I just want to not be here anymore...

I need some advise, what are some of the best ways to get back into drawing again? A few years ago, I used to draw every single day of my life, but ever since I had to constantly move place to place, and having my environment completely change to something I wasn't used to, it had pulled me away from drawing anything, and now I have completely lost my spark, and only draw on SUPER rare moments, which is MONTHS apart. Now days, I'm especially missing the good old days of when I used to draw and let my imagination and creativity just flow at any moment, and I want come back to drawing again. What are your suggestions, advise, ideas, or recommendations for me to get back into drawing again?

There's a specific type of story that I have always wanted to do, one that symbolizes my entire life in the form of a huge crossover adventure starring all the characters from all of my stories I have ever created. And I felt that if I truly wanted to fully express my entire life and all the life problems that I have endured, that I felt the need to even include myself in some way in the story crossing over all of my creations. A huge reason why I needed to ask this is because I've heard stories that insert the creator into it has bad reputations because most of the time a creator would turn themself into a Mary Sue character upon inserting themself into their own story, and thus the story turns out terrible. I truly don't want to be seen that way, I want to insert myself into my own story just to fully express my entire life in the best way I can, something that could possibly give a great message to everyone and inspire people with it, I've always wanted to express my entire life and I felt a story was the best way for me to do that. What do you think, is it okay for me to insert myself into my own story?

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